Nature of the Universe

Imagine that this universe is generated by something like a reverse black hole. Instead of sucking in energy and matter, it spits it out infinitely. This helps to explain why black holes are found by physicists to be infinitely dense, because even a “fraction” of infinity is STILL infinity. The singularity of this “white hole” is consciousness itself. It is the awareness with which you and I experience this existential reality. In a way, YOU are this singularity. This entire universe is pouring forth from YOU. The substance or energy that manifests as all matter cannot be defined or put into words. We can look closer at the matter that we observe, and we can discover infinite particles and manifestations of this energy, but we will never find its Source, because its Source is not a “thing”. It is nothing. That’s right. No “thing”. Hard to imagine? Stop trying. It’s who you are.

Why do we fear the things we want? We fear what we desire because we don’t already have it. If we did, we would not want it. We would want something else. And because we do not have it, we view ourselves as “lacking” in some way. We think we are inadequate or insufficient and we focus on the absence of our desire. This creates resistance within us or what is often referred to as “fear”. Ultimately, this fear is an illusion that perpetuates itself. The more we fear and resist, the more we lack what we truly desire, and the greater our fear becomes. If we could release ALL of this fear, ALL of this resistance, we would NEVER feel inadequate again. We would have EVERYTHING we could ever possibly desire. Life would be free-flowing, wonderful, and carefree. There would be absolutely no tension, no anxiety, no frustration. Just peace and a pleasant awareness of the NOW. That is what we are here for. 

We are not here to struggle. We are not here to experience life as a burden that gets heavier and heavier with age. NO. We are here to follow our bliss, we are here to flow this magnificent river of life in ANY direction that we choose. We are here to experience total freedom. When we resist and feel “fear” it is unpleasant, because we are going against our true nature. Pain is the universe telling us that we are lying to ourselves, that we are pushing against the flow of life. It is your friend, not your enemy. There ARE NO enemies. You may interpret someone or something as an enemy, or as “bad”, but it is not inherently so. It is merely YOUR interpretation, and it is ALWAYS subject to change.

Let it out! Let your feelings come to the surface, let them flow through you! Do not resist anything, do not repress it, and do not be ashamed. Be free and be yourself. Hold back NOTHING and give this life EVERYTHING you've got. Let your dreams be your guide and your passion be your fuel. Be who you really are, not what anyone tells you that you are. Do what you REALLY want to do. Every moment is a choice. To resist or to allow. Allow the flow of life. All else is commentary. To release ALL resistance is to ALWAYS be in a state of PERFECT allowance and acceptance. The mind can come up with endless reasons to be afraid, but there is only one reason to be in love. That is WHO YOU ARE. Being yourself IS being love. Remember that.

Let Go of the Past

For too long I would lose myself in that sorrow and self-pity that only the lonely have the misfortune of indulging in, regretting missed opportunities and dwelling on the possibilities of what could have been.

Thinking if only, if only I did things differently, if only I took advantage of the opportunities I had right in front of me.

But my gnawing fear and self-consciousness blinded me. It blinded me to the fact that if I just allowed my true self, my true thoughts, and my true feelings to come through they would enable me to seize these opportunities and capture the moments that I longed for in life.

This feeling of listliss remorse gave me a sort of depressing, self-deprecating comfort as I pondered the possibilities of what could have been and imagined them in my mind's eye. I saw myself with the girl I had always dreamed of being with but never had the courage to talk to.

I saw the wonderful friendships I could have experienced if I had the audacity to break out of the shell that choked all the joy, happiness, and life out of me and replaced it with silent tension, constant worry and anxiety, and ceaseless discomfort.

And then I realized the very act of allowing myself to enter this pitiful, self-destructive state was what prevented my growth. It prevented me from learning from my mistakes and moving forward with this new-found wisdom.

I couldn't see it then, that the lies I told myself were what held me back, that the stories I made up in my head kept me caught in this paralyzing web of awkwardness, fear, and self-loathing. I now understand that these lies that I chose to believe were what disabled me and caused me to miss out on life. And I see that dwelling on these past mistakes in the present is much worse than the mistakes themselves, because it causes me to miss out on what truly matters, this moment. 

The past is not reality, it is nothing more than a distant memory that is warped and changed every time it is recalled in order to correlate with a person's current beliefs and state of mind. I cannot change the past, but I can learn a valuable lesson from it and use this lesson to prevent myself from repeating these past mistakes in the present and future. I am no longer blinded by my own fear and self doubt, for I can see the truth, and that the truth alone will set you free.